kaysfun's Blog

OK people this is the last post to this blog. I will still be posting to my groups but if you wanna see my blog you are going to have to go here:

http://ccmishawn.blogspot.com/

Come on by.

kisses

-k

silence stretching

dead to the distance

tension building within

bringing forth the loss

unleashed in a scream

known fully seen

heard without judgment

my feelings rush into the silence with rapid beats

fighting to push away the touch

tears erased fears chastened

my heart sings washed in acceptance

held loved cherished

his

New day
touched in time
clouded in mind
feelings so new
shared and profound
dig away the damage
pulled away through the pain
uncover me
find me
see me
I am

Well for the first time in well over 5 years I have fallen on the ice. And I do mean it sucked. It was cold and sudden and painful. I am not dead nor did I break the bone this time. But I am hurt and when it happened it was 5:30 am I was on my way out to the car so I guess its great no one was there to see it, but also no one was there to ---1 help me up, --2 help me to the car, -- or 3 make fun of me. I think in the absence of three I can sacrifice one and two. Yes in retrospect I think it is definitely acceptable.

Off to the grind

kisses

-k

OK I was actually doing ok for a little bit. But now i am done. they can take the rest of this month and shove it.

Damn who would have though that I could sit and stress about something so damn easy.

wow I am so freaken girlie at times it scares me.

Well didn't wake up feeling good. Woke up to anxiety and a feeling of dread just like the last election. This time though I was pleasantly surprised as I walked to the computer to see all that blue in the right places.

I am happy. feeling optimistic for the first time in a long time. And really to be honest I just wanted to get back in my bed and wait for the new day to dawn. there is so much work to do to repair all this damage. But we have taken the first step. Thumbs Up to all who went out and voted. Who showed their support. And for all those Black People for McCain. You should be ashamed of yourselves... FOR-REAL MCCAIN. I am glad the brainwash didn't take all over.

Why is it that it seams that some people are not happy unless they are screwing something up for other people? What the hell is up with that?

I mean YEAH FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. I don't have to hear "Im bored" and have no defense for the next 9 months. WOO HOOOO Now I can say go get your ______ project or ______ book you need to get read, or _____ work for that class. I never thought I would look forward to the beginning of school. but summer vacation to poor parents is just another reminder of what you can't do for your family because the national income has ballooned to where you can't have kids without 2 large incomes. We are neglecting our youth and blaming parents when their kids do illegal shit. Well guess what if all they see are people who don't really care about them IE day care, sacc programs, YMCA programs, What the hell do people expect.

Well it is Tuesday and I am at work again. Man do we really need to do this 5 days a week. I think I could get the same amount done in 4 - 10 hour days. but nnnooo my company has to suck. Well I am here and feeling kinda good today i just put on a skirt this morning out the closet and it is too big. I wore it anyways cause I couldn't find another black skirt of the right material and length so here I am with my skirt spinning and I don't care I am shrinking finally. YA diet and exercise!!

I am older and maybe a little wiser. At work before the sun and thinking about the weekend already.